而這一段長達二年的論文路，亦可說是我在經歷「主體化」的脫變路徑，透過行徑的路程，不僅重整了我這個女性的生命經驗及試圖尋獲主體的歷程外，在這過程中，同時崩解了我這個女人對愛情的「封沈」，致而「醒覺」。 The methodology of the research is narrative study, which reviews the life process of encountering and wondering. Through the autobiographical style of writing, in order to enhance self-awareness and reflections on the life meaning, the researcher transforms life experiences into literary form of stories instead of basing on theoretical viewpoint.
The narration includes three parts written by the researcher. The first part is the story, which comes from the memories of the researcher. The second part is the dialogues between the directive professor and the researcher. The reflections on the life meaning of the “family-individual” relationship is the third part transforms the researcher’s viewpoint on “Being Subjectivity”.
Through the process of narrative, the researcher has not only reframed the meaning of family experience but also re-experienced the process of being subjectivity, as well as the awareness of the relationships between men and women.